Love this! I think I’ve done every ritual that ever was. I was a manic manifestor. If I just said the right words, the right incantation - then the magic would happen. But I was holding on to what I wanted with a kung fu grip. But that’s not where the magic happens. It’s in the letting go, the surrendering to the Universe. Trusting that the Universe has my back. I don’t “try” to manifest anything anymore. I set intentions, I have a trajectory. But I rest in the peace that the universe has me. And I let that shit go.
I felt the call to read it completly and I loved it
Been going through same phase,
There is certain action I have to take and there is certain results I'm expecting. I can perform action but can't control results, So I'm tuning myself in a way, let me do what I can do and leave, the best comes to me, even if it is not what I want, Still it will best also every action I'm taking is not with force or "Need to happen" but with love
Yes, still sometimes I fall for "Why isn't it happening?" but then I surrender
Yes! This! This is why I loathe all the “good vibes only” pillows and tumblers and tschotschkes—I’ve actually said to people, “Sorry, lady, but I’m bipolar and batshit, and allllllll of this [points to fat frizzy-haired self from top to bottom] is the only thing you’ll get, and it’ll damn well be gooder than good.” And then I send them to my substack to see just how bipolar and batshit I am, lol.
Your posts are faboo. About to smash that subscribe button. Thanks for the fucking fabulous energy you bring to the table. It feeds more people than you think.
Oh my gosh thank you Jennifer!!!! I love your energy too! Hahahaha we're all bat shit crazy in different ways lol. Ask my husband! The more we embrace it the better🤣🤣
The story of my life...trying too hard serves you not at all, keeps you stuck, surrendering is not easy either..finding ones own way is the key. On the way of magic.. breath after breath ...💫
You, my new friend, are a like-minded soul sister, generations apart in body, aligned in spirit!
But I must ask. How are you reading my never-published private journal?
"My soul just doesn’t allow me to do things that aren’t right at the right time. I’d have instant visceral reactions from my body, and even if I do try to force it from time to time…it won’t happen. I’d only feel like a petulant child who can’t shut the fuck up until she gets her favourite candy."
I continually remind the child to behave by setting my daily intention and reinforcing it when entering a poker tournament:
I intend to make correct decisions and remain unattached to the outcome.
Seriously...why is this making me tear up??? Thank you so so much for the deep beautiful love my friend! We've met here for a reason...and I can feel it deep in my soul!
That’s an important message. Thanks for sharing your honest and raw experiences. I do think that manifestation happens constantly, consciously and subconsciously, with every thought and word and deed we re-create our reality and attract or repel. But yeah, this whole manifest what you want - as you said - it’s nice and it’s often an exciting start to a deeper journey. But it can also very quickly turn into control. You only feel safe IF xyz materializes. So in that sense it can potentially be a bypass to facing deeper feelings of unsafety and never enough etc.
I know right??!! It feels like everything has light and a shadow... but when the shadow side starts to affect us deeply...then it's time to get aware! Thank you so much Ines!
"I sat down. Had a bunch of messy, mucky, tangled internal conversations. And slowly accepted something that changed everything. . .That in this lifetime, I’m not meant to struggle for money."
and yet, we somehow choose a way to struggle for money even though it isn't meant to be that way! I totally relate to everything in this. Thank you.
I love this Shruthi! I love how your journey has become so much more organic and how you've embraced allowing and receiving. This feels like such freedom to me. I've been having some similar conversations with other people and it's felt very auspicious. Or maybe I'm finally just ready? I believe the Universe has a sense of humor don't you?
Part of me feels fear. Won't lie. That part of myself is saying Whoa, are you sure you want this? What if you get yourself in trouble? Another part of me feels exhilarated and can't wait to dive in. That part is saying "Ooh, I love this shit! More please!"
I feel like this has always been around me it's just that now I'm paying attention. There's an organic part of myself that slowly shifts and grows and when that part is ready I see what's in front of me.
Wish I could find these opportunities using a spreadsheet but 100% of me needs to be onboard to move forward. I sometimes use the phrase "I need to receive this at a cellular level to take action."
And who can say what's next? I really take all of this one day at a time. There are much smarter Ones out there keeping an eye on me.
You do need to receive it at a cellular level Judy - oh what a beautiful way to put it! I also think it's all a parallel process though...like millions of shifts happening at the same time even if we can't see it!
I can't wait to see what comes up for you!!!
P.S.: This is an exercise I usually do with my clients...I ask them "who voice is it?". Even if it's yourself...what age, how do you look, where are you, and more...to sit with them...listen to them. Only if you're called to this!!!
Oh, I can feel the hordes of coaches slanging manifestation rolling up their collective sleeves. I love it, Shruthi. We all deserve to read this.
As a former hopeful for manifestation, something else has become clear. All my change agendas are troublesome demonstrations of how I can suffer deeply over what is actually here and now. Sprinkle in some attachment to outcomes, and watch the suffering boil.
There is something to be said for change agendas, though. This seems to be the fastest way into figuring out that I was never really in control in the first place. It was a change agenda that drove me to the cushion in early days, taking up meditation like learning martial arts. Twelve years on, there's no doubt that noticing is the far wiser agenda.
Love this! I think I’ve done every ritual that ever was. I was a manic manifestor. If I just said the right words, the right incantation - then the magic would happen. But I was holding on to what I wanted with a kung fu grip. But that’s not where the magic happens. It’s in the letting go, the surrendering to the Universe. Trusting that the Universe has my back. I don’t “try” to manifest anything anymore. I set intentions, I have a trajectory. But I rest in the peace that the universe has me. And I let that shit go.
It's so damn freeing isn't it???!! Like a massive relief! Even though our mind tries to throw tantrums sometimes😝
Malisa, it continues to amaze me how well this works at the poker table! The more I stop trying and chasing the cards, the more I win.
I feel like that works with anything. When we stop chasing, we attract
That's so cool Donna! Who thought this would work everywhere?
Beautiful,
I felt the call to read it completly and I loved it
Been going through same phase,
There is certain action I have to take and there is certain results I'm expecting. I can perform action but can't control results, So I'm tuning myself in a way, let me do what I can do and leave, the best comes to me, even if it is not what I want, Still it will best also every action I'm taking is not with force or "Need to happen" but with love
Yes, still sometimes I fall for "Why isn't it happening?" but then I surrender
Adhiyen!!!! Dei so good to see you da!!! Oh man! Thank you for this bro...
Yeah it's a massive push and pull inside of us...but the more and more we surrender I've noticed the world opening up
Let go and good will come if it's meant to.
Definitely Therese! But that's the hardest part isn't it??
Yes! This! This is why I loathe all the “good vibes only” pillows and tumblers and tschotschkes—I’ve actually said to people, “Sorry, lady, but I’m bipolar and batshit, and allllllll of this [points to fat frizzy-haired self from top to bottom] is the only thing you’ll get, and it’ll damn well be gooder than good.” And then I send them to my substack to see just how bipolar and batshit I am, lol.
Your posts are faboo. About to smash that subscribe button. Thanks for the fucking fabulous energy you bring to the table. It feeds more people than you think.
Oh my gosh thank you Jennifer!!!! I love your energy too! Hahahaha we're all bat shit crazy in different ways lol. Ask my husband! The more we embrace it the better🤣🤣
Exactly! We have this hanging in our kitchen.
Love it. Yes, I feel it too. ❤️
The story of my life...trying too hard serves you not at all, keeps you stuck, surrendering is not easy either..finding ones own way is the key. On the way of magic.. breath after breath ...💫
"If trying harder didn't work, try softer." —Lily Tomlin 💕
Awwww! I love this Tanja!!!
I keep going back to the quote...what got you here won't get you there...you know?
You, my new friend, are a like-minded soul sister, generations apart in body, aligned in spirit!
But I must ask. How are you reading my never-published private journal?
"My soul just doesn’t allow me to do things that aren’t right at the right time. I’d have instant visceral reactions from my body, and even if I do try to force it from time to time…it won’t happen. I’d only feel like a petulant child who can’t shut the fuck up until she gets her favourite candy."
I continually remind the child to behave by setting my daily intention and reinforcing it when entering a poker tournament:
I intend to make correct decisions and remain unattached to the outcome.
Seriously...why is this making me tear up??? Thank you so so much for the deep beautiful love my friend! We've met here for a reason...and I can feel it deep in my soul!
That’s an important message. Thanks for sharing your honest and raw experiences. I do think that manifestation happens constantly, consciously and subconsciously, with every thought and word and deed we re-create our reality and attract or repel. But yeah, this whole manifest what you want - as you said - it’s nice and it’s often an exciting start to a deeper journey. But it can also very quickly turn into control. You only feel safe IF xyz materializes. So in that sense it can potentially be a bypass to facing deeper feelings of unsafety and never enough etc.
I know right??!! It feels like everything has light and a shadow... but when the shadow side starts to affect us deeply...then it's time to get aware! Thank you so much Ines!
Yes exactly! 🙌🙌
Yes! Feel this 💯 ❤️
Thank you Jasmine!🥹💕
I love this line:
"I sat down. Had a bunch of messy, mucky, tangled internal conversations. And slowly accepted something that changed everything. . .That in this lifetime, I’m not meant to struggle for money."
and yet, we somehow choose a way to struggle for money even though it isn't meant to be that way! I totally relate to everything in this. Thank you.
I know right?? Only if we remembered this and the unconditional love we recieve 🥹💕
Thank you so much Teri!
I love this Shruthi! I love how your journey has become so much more organic and how you've embraced allowing and receiving. This feels like such freedom to me. I've been having some similar conversations with other people and it's felt very auspicious. Or maybe I'm finally just ready? I believe the Universe has a sense of humor don't you?
Thank you so much!
Hahaha you're finally ready to remember ❤️💕. What's coming up for you when you have these conversations Judy!
Part of me feels fear. Won't lie. That part of myself is saying Whoa, are you sure you want this? What if you get yourself in trouble? Another part of me feels exhilarated and can't wait to dive in. That part is saying "Ooh, I love this shit! More please!"
I feel like this has always been around me it's just that now I'm paying attention. There's an organic part of myself that slowly shifts and grows and when that part is ready I see what's in front of me.
Wish I could find these opportunities using a spreadsheet but 100% of me needs to be onboard to move forward. I sometimes use the phrase "I need to receive this at a cellular level to take action."
And who can say what's next? I really take all of this one day at a time. There are much smarter Ones out there keeping an eye on me.
You do need to receive it at a cellular level Judy - oh what a beautiful way to put it! I also think it's all a parallel process though...like millions of shifts happening at the same time even if we can't see it!
I can't wait to see what comes up for you!!!
P.S.: This is an exercise I usually do with my clients...I ask them "who voice is it?". Even if it's yourself...what age, how do you look, where are you, and more...to sit with them...listen to them. Only if you're called to this!!!
This resonates so hard! I feel like I'm on such a similar journey as you, it's amazing. I adore you and your writing!
Oh, I can feel the hordes of coaches slanging manifestation rolling up their collective sleeves. I love it, Shruthi. We all deserve to read this.
As a former hopeful for manifestation, something else has become clear. All my change agendas are troublesome demonstrations of how I can suffer deeply over what is actually here and now. Sprinkle in some attachment to outcomes, and watch the suffering boil.
There is something to be said for change agendas, though. This seems to be the fastest way into figuring out that I was never really in control in the first place. It was a change agenda that drove me to the cushion in early days, taking up meditation like learning martial arts. Twelve years on, there's no doubt that noticing is the far wiser agenda.
Cheers for the read!
Yeah, letting go is hard, but worth it.